Why Do I Even Bother?

I try to stay positive
But all you give me is negatives.
How we won't work because of this
And won't work because of that.
Sometimes I ask myself
Why do I even bother?
Feels like you'd rather delete me
From your memory... completely.
While you have your drunkin slumber partys
Have late night convos wit sidelines
And love your options,
I ask myself, Why do I even bother?
Do you really care like you say you do?
Or are you just sayin that
To keep me as loyal option number 2?
I love you...
But why do I even bother?....

(Yucc haha) ... "Dearjohn" - Musiq Soulchild